Yesterday I made and posted a video over on my Youtube Channel talking about loneliness and general feelings of being sad. What prompted me to make it was a mixture of trying to deal with my own insecurities as well as just trying to get things out in the open. I'm not always sad or lonely, but I get these bouts of real sadness and emotional distain.
We live in this world which is hyper social but you can still feel alone. I grew up in the Myspace Generation and being in a world where having 30,000 friends was the best thing ever. Even going to adulthood I've always been online and had a support network. For as long as I can remember I personally really suffer with being lonely. Even when I was at school I occasionally felt like no one liked me, that I was the odd one out and just didn't fit. Deep down, I KNOW I'm not alone. I have some of the best friends in the world, I have you guys who support and read my blog and so many people out there who I could talk to. But for as long as I can remember I get boughs of extreme loneliness. Despite what people might think of me, I'm not overly popular "IRL". I'm shy, reserved and I do like being on my own more than socialising. Over time I realised that this was mainly because I often feel disconnected from people around me. You know, that empty feeling like your standing with a group of people but feel like you're inside some sort of bubble. I can never put my finger on why I felt like that but I did
The video explains things a little more but always remember that everyone gets lonely. It doesn't mean that there is anything wrong with you. We all have those moments where we feel like things aren't going to get any better, we aren't going to meet someone and you'll always feel like this. You won't, it'll pass. Just keep working on it. It's okay to be on your own, it's okay to feel sad sometimes. But at the end of the day you need to stay Positive and look on the bright side of life. Easier said than done I know. But these feelings are almost always temporary and you will get over it in time.
Thank you to everyone who's been so supportive of my video and my thoughts. I don't often share this side of me on the internet, because lets face it I don't think you want to see someone feeling so sad and vulnerable. Its one big problem with the internet, you see what I put out there or want you to see. Even now a day later I'm panicking every 5 seconds worrying about what people think of me. Getting things off my chest (and possibly taking some of my own advice!) has helped me so much already. It's reassuring to know so many other people feel the same as me and we aren't alone!